He was talking, talking n talking about how great he is, how smart he is, and how he beats everybody…
She was listening n listening like usual, didn’t want to stop him, couldn’t say how bad she feels, how life has no sense, n how everything was jus absurd…she always wanted to stop him n say…it’s my turn, to talk and it’s ur turn to listen….but couldn’t….
How many times she needed him but he wasn’t there, how many times she wanted a shoulder to cry on, someone to whom to talk but he was busy…she can be number two, three, ten but never number one on his priority list…however he was always her priority…her brain was saying, open ur eyes, but her heart replied, this is love, it’s concessions, she convinced herself that he loves her in his own way, that he really cares but is not the kind to show, that he is busy to assure a better future and that she will be his priority , yes ...maybe one day….!!!
Suddenly he stopped talking and looked at her, for a while, then he said “ we r going to get married soon, u know, I had a lot of choices, but I chose u, however, there is one condition, I want u to quit ur job., I want to be ur only priority, I want to be ur only world”…
She felt as if he slapped her, her heart tried hardly to find more excuses but her brain this time was stronger, so the heart remained silent, she understands now, that she is jus one of other numbers on his list, to be the honoured elected, she has to abide by his rules, his decisions, his choices,but what about her rules, decisions, choices then???...they r of none importance to him, she is sure now that he feels no love for her!...
She was listening n listening like usual, didn’t want to stop him, couldn’t say how bad she feels, how life has no sense, n how everything was jus absurd…she always wanted to stop him n say…it’s my turn, to talk and it’s ur turn to listen….but couldn’t….
How many times she needed him but he wasn’t there, how many times she wanted a shoulder to cry on, someone to whom to talk but he was busy…she can be number two, three, ten but never number one on his priority list…however he was always her priority…her brain was saying, open ur eyes, but her heart replied, this is love, it’s concessions, she convinced herself that he loves her in his own way, that he really cares but is not the kind to show, that he is busy to assure a better future and that she will be his priority , yes ...maybe one day….!!!
Suddenly he stopped talking and looked at her, for a while, then he said “ we r going to get married soon, u know, I had a lot of choices, but I chose u, however, there is one condition, I want u to quit ur job., I want to be ur only priority, I want to be ur only world”…
She felt as if he slapped her, her heart tried hardly to find more excuses but her brain this time was stronger, so the heart remained silent, she understands now, that she is jus one of other numbers on his list, to be the honoured elected, she has to abide by his rules, his decisions, his choices,but what about her rules, decisions, choices then???...they r of none importance to him, she is sure now that he feels no love for her!...
Love is caring, love is understanding, love is friendship, love is listening, love is to be there when the other person needs u, love is to feel ur lover’s pains, love can’t be domination, can’t hav conditions, either u love or not, unfortunately he felt none of this.
She looked at him for a while, pulled herself together and replied” Sorry, but I deserve better…it’s over”…
She looked at him for a while, pulled herself together and replied” Sorry, but I deserve better…it’s over”…
He felt as if she slapped him, couldn’t say a word…
then she left …
